The dream that eludes my memories upon waking
The split-second train of thoughts I can never come back to
Perhaps you are
That lover from a forgotten lifetime
Or the one I’d live for in my next life
And just like
The moment of truth we unknowingly let slip
You will always be
My best “I’ll never know” and favorite “what if”
Like the clear sky after the rain
That’s how I feel when I see your smile
– Too bad it’s in short supply
I long to be moored on a coast, not just floating aimlessly in the vast ocean.
(Point me the direction to your harbour, would you?)
It’s not how
I sat idly by
as you drift away
with someone new
It was how I got caught off guard by your smile
and let myself fall
– My first and worst regret
would you be so kind
and let him not haunt
my dreams because I’m
getting restless and
truth be told when
I see his grin
my heart dance
to the tune
of a long forgotten
melody and I can’t
risk falling even
this slippery bank
(even now, I’m already in too deep)
You were the river
to my Narcissus
I didn’t love you
I loved the way you
reflected the best parts of
me as if they
I think you are the line where the sky meets the sea where my dreams and reality blurred you are my hope and desire personified.
My mouth, though,
always say other words.
nothing but a pretty word from someone who would eventually cease to mean anything.
(and yet we crawl and dig and curse and hurt and kill for it. Still)
but your existence is the salves for those stings.
(warning: might cause feverish daydream, jittery feelings, and addiction.)
In a cig, I found the taste of your lips.
In a cuppa tea and peppermint, you’ll find mine.
(and that’s how we cope)